"I'll... be right there" Charon murmered to Bremen, but she couldn't turn away from the halforc/halfling. She watched, in some way fascinated by the way he was changing. She waited until the change had finished, pondered just how connected all these beings were
"And all of you, within this body" she asked "Do you all share his intentions and desires? Do you all agree with the methods of Shaho-" she stalled "... of Sh'Hodmet?" she tried so hard to match the pronunciation, but the name slid awkwardly off her tongue
She tilted her head "Do you all hear and see the same things? Do you share... each others time in the spotlight, so to speak, or do you lose moments when someone says something in confidence? If I respond to you... will Sh'Hodmet hear what I say?"
"Just because he is immortal... for certain I respect this... but a milennias opinions, can taint ones mind greatly. Especially when he himself admits that he has broken free of whatever agent to which he was bound for many of those years. He obviously... did not agree with them as much as he agreed with himself. But he spoke the truth for it is true that good can be as destructive as evil" she smiled slightly "It can also be far more destructive. Many times have I seen troubles caused by those
believing they were doing good, seen the destruction laid down by those seeking righteous vengeance"
"I may not have been around as long as he... I may not have the knowledge of the world that many of you have... but I am willing to speak my fear honestly. It is my fear, that
this may happen again"
She stalled before she continued. She hated conflict of any kind, and yet she was now beginning to see herself as a hypocrite of the highest order... in her mind, she had been personifying her demons in Elwin... had been all too willing to see him as an enemy... but now as she came to speak she caught her words. Could Bremen be right that Lord Elwin may not be the enemy? Despite all he had done, despite the slaughter she had...
"Bremen" she rasped... but she still couldn't make herself continue
The Council of Elders wanted him dead... hadn't she left them and started wandering on her own for precisely that reason? To try and distance herself from the emotions they played with as they made their arguements... and yet here she was, still held captive to those very arguements, still... she closed her eyes, but all she could see was the battlefields she'd tried to pass through so quickly, flashes of red, slaughter and tall shields... the hated emblem she had seen so often, the eagle and the lion.
Could Bremen be right? She wasn't sure she even dared entertain the notion... Could anything have justified...
"I suppose" she conceded weakly "My own opinions are just as likely to be biased... just as likely to be wrong as anyone elses. Perhaps Lord Elwin is the enemy... perhaps... just perhaps, your faith...
maybe he is not"
She bowed her head "But I... there must always be an alternative to killing. This much... This much I
have to believe" she said it with such emotion "I
have to believe" she murmered faintly
((Erk... my posts are increasing somewhat horrendously in size. I apologise greatly

I guess I had a moment of inspiration ^^;; I'll make sure to try and make it somewhat more managable to read next time I have one of those... sorry again))
Edited by Charon, 19 March 2004 - 05:01 PM.
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